it hurts so much i cant even think of a sentence to describe this feeling. guess life after spm isn’t as great as expected huh. oh well, going for plkn next month. time to start over :) yeah so there you go, my short yet also meaningless post. till then. yeahh, still in pain. hoping for good things to happen tho. x
“At the same time, you have to find the right distance between people. Too close, and they overwhelm you, too far and they abandon you. How to hold them in the right relation?”—Intimacy by Hanif Kureishi (via loveyourchaos)
frankly i have my second week of trials tomorrow. sejarah and moral. yeah all jumbled up in one day. ONE FRIGGIN DAY. essay writing kills. but yeah, its about time to bring this blog back to life HAHA.
distance by christina perri feat jason mraz. what an emo song i would say. BECAUSE IT MADE ME FEEL EMO ALL OF THE SUDDEN. havent been emotional for 2 and a half months, straight.
screw that, im a happy kid ;) yesh im a goat meeeeeeeeehhhh. *recalls what tchr rosaline said trolol*
when you lock yourself in your room, studying. like really trying to study and you finally did it. so you finally studied! but wait. then hunger distracts you and you decided to head to the kitchen to kurik something to eat. AND THEN your mum sees you and shes like HUWDBSGUAFE!!!!!!!! KW TGK!!!!!!! MAKAAAAAAAAAAAN JA! BUKAN PANDAI STUDY! KW INGAT TU MASA TUNGGU KW KA!!!(hence my mum’s fav quote) HARHH!!!!!! HSUBSJJSK!!!!!!!!!!!!
wow. diam2 seja lerr. what matters now is i know i did my part. malas btul mw argue :)
sa bkn org yg suka simpan dendam. well i was before but sa sedar swa ok. even my mum said, ”ah? org gitu pun kw mw stay friends ka? klw sa, sa tia mw oh!” ive said this before and i will say it again and again and again until kepala ko pecah ging seh ;) apa2pun im very grateful that kta msi dpt BERKOMUNIKASI, at least, kan sa bilang. HAHA. now i know prayer works. effort pun kira bha. GOD IS TRULY GOOD ALL THE TIME :) tida menyesal sa p HSC (last minute decision to go lae tu! deii), i miss HSC! :( TUHAN MENGASIHI ANDA DAN DIA MENAWARKAN SATU RANCANGAN YG ISTIMEWA UTK HIDUP ANDA. now, i strongly believe in that. most importantly, i am very honoured to say that sa telah menerima Tuhan :’)
now i know how it feels to have 100% faith in Him.
God healed me and im truly grateful for everything that’s happened.
that awkward moment when you bump into your ex. awkward? i dont find it SUPER awkward, at least, i didnt get treated like a stranger/passer by in his life. God finally answered my prayers. FINALLY. patience really is the key to success. im glad that we’ve finally talk things through. face to face lae tu (some). ok no need for details. aman swa la sikit :) behind all the confusion, the constant wondering (not really bothered to, keeping yourself busy really helps) all this while, i finally understand what ACTUALLY happened. what’s done has done, itu seja!
”no matter what i’m going through or what i see, i’m confident that God will show up. God will show up in these crazy people i have to deal with, God will show up in there crazy circumstances and God will show up and work through me. i praise God for not letting me lose heart because Lord knows i needed it. i bless God for allowing me to have enough faith to know that He will always show up.”
so yeah :’) ( mentang2 nangis depan comp td! haha mission accomplished! :) )
The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These people have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.